So much on my mind, with work and life and the stress of schools arrival I am pretty much freaking out.
There is a whole pile of things that just keep showing up. Life has been getting more complicated and for a change it is not my fault, or I think it is not my fault. I suppose I should be more upbeat, Hell I intended for this to stop being a blog of complaints and focused misery but what else do I have. Leah returns soon thank gawd so I can at least get things between us sorted out.
Fuck.
Ok anyway on to other news I have become addicted to S.M. Sterlings work as of late starting with his “Peshawar Lancers” and “Homecoming” now I am trapped in his series that is begun with “Dies the Fire” his writing style is one that perks my interest and with the death of Robert Jordan and the extended wait for George R.R. Martins next book I need something to fill the gap. Of course I have also been hooked on Harry Turtledove who’s writing on Alternative history fits well with my own head space. My own prediliction to history makes his work right up my Alley, I mean a series where Japan REALLY won at Pearl Harbor seizing the Island itself and a portion of its Facilities, how in the hell can I say no? Not to mention his multi book multi series epic of what if the south won the US civil war. Facinating stuff and I just eat it up all day long.
I think I am hiding in the books to keep away from the rest of my life the rest of the mess. I am trying to do a whole pile of different things before school starts and it seems few of them are going to happen. This is of course frustrating but in good news I have gotten my broken tooth yanked out and soon I shall get the other wisdom teeth out as well. Leaving the back of my mouth free and clear and spacious for the first time in my life, well since they came in all those years ago.
Even my love life normally a place of at least peace is becoming more complicated. I am afraid about what is going on. Afraid of whats to come. Damn.