Edutainment with Ranting

I am tired in a way that only weeks of exams can bring, best of all I am building up to THE NEXT BATCH right now, to call me tickled pink would be incorrect, indeed frothing with rage is not appropriate either. Instead I am drained. I have stopped sleeping and only lay in bed tossing wracked by strange dreams and weirder idea’s. I want this to be over, yes I partied Saturday cause I needed to FEEL like it could be done, like an end to this is even possible. This stygian nightmare will be done till finals, which will not be as bad due to the end of my night class coming weeks before. YAY only a 4 way mental sodomy on that week. I guess it beats 5. It would help if I had clue 1 as to what in the hell is going on in CompSci that will be rectified this week but seriously what the hell was I thinking, 4 is hard, 5 is a GODDAMNED nightmare. I have papers soon PAPERS. Thank the gawds that so many are first year classes I have been putting off.  Of course I wish they did not have to be done this year either, but by FUCKING GOD I will finish this BA this year, I am tired of feeling like I am spinning my wheels and watching everyone else have lives and futures while I live in a educational Uterus awaiting birth as a human worthy of contact. Well enough of this preamble, I am to eat and then off to write.

I had the first dream in awhile, this is of course not being regaled because of its unusual nature but more over what went on.

I was on the O/D-Line playing football, and I blocked someone down and suddenly I caught the ball and started to run. I felt the crowd surge to their feet, and ahead of me was another player, he seems like no one but everyone. We meet eyes and I know where he is going to go, he wants to go low, I lowered my head becoming perpendicular to the ground with the ball locked in my hands. My head hits him and he grabs nothing, I go THRU him with my head. I see him underneath me as a move past to the endzone and again I feel that moment of victory, of achievement like everything is the way it should be.

Then I woke up. Alone in my room.

I don’t know what it means, I have some thoughts but nothing I want to share yet.

I wrote my PoliSci middie today on Coersion vs Influence.

I am not sure how I did.. The topic got away from me that could be good or bad.

I have one more exam, but it is a Micheal Lynn-George exam and as those of you in the know are aware it will be absoluty the hardest exam I have written this year.

Grades in So Far: CompSci Middie 69%

I am waiting on all the others and with the prof for half of them on vacation, I have low hopes of knowing by next week.

The job search goes poorly apparently my class schedule makes me very unappealing for anything but the worst Jobs. FUCK. Anyhow I should give a shit about this for a few min.

I am in a weird state the last day or so. I saw the new Elizibeth film with Erin Rachel and Frank when I started thinking again, for the first time in a long time about what I actually do. Histography, the pattern of time, it perks my interest all those events in the past that changes so much about the world now and then. I have been in a state of constant thought on it (Just in time for the two middies I am most worried about) and other things. I seem to be thinking again, well in the creative analytical sense anyhow. I mean I had been thinking before but it is not the same thing at all. It seems that working at the lube shop had more effect on me than I thought as most of my mental energies were off, or directed into football. When you spend most of your days around people that consider literacy an accomplishment rather than a beginning, discussions about anything remotely considered intellectual are Taboo.

I did not realize I had missed them until I unleashed one.

I am glad I have a group of friends these days so suited to such pursits. Now how long till people start telling me to shut up again.

In good news I seem to have no lab this week. In bad news I have middies in several classes not the least of which is my night class. SNAP

I am half done the midterms and I think I passed the CompSci one I was dreading. This week coming up I have 2 more and then I am pretty much done. This of course is making me happy. As long as it is actually true.

I have Shaved again, I do not know whether I am going to keep it off or regrow. But it did facilitate scaring the hell out of Corrin so I have already won a little either way. Thank you giant ass lady who I hid behind. Next weekend I hope to do something with Nirbo and Sisters to celebrate the freedom of education. Or rather to celebrate freedom from Midterms. Whatever. As of now I am brain damaged due to lack of sleep but I want to get my chat on here on the Blogosphere.

I am too done Night.