Edutainment with Ranting

Yeah I didn’t get the job, no real shock there the massive nepotism complex was something I refused to be a part of and lets be honest I would have work the whole year to break their hold on things and return Safewalk to some semblance of its former glory. Now to go apply for a variety of rather painful occupations and try to make enough money or find a year long compatible job so I can survive over the year. I have a paper due tommorow that is pretty much done and another that I want done monday that is nothing at this point, but once they are done I have a single exam and this nightmare of a semester is over and I can refocus on getting my BA.

Things on the mental front are deteriorating and now with no incentive to hide the slope has become steeper, Dang. In good news I am once more able to sleep 10 hours a night, the bad news is this only seems to happen when I plan to sleep 8. Ah well, I took today off work because I am  just not up to it today, a day free will allow me to work and maybe acheive something of value as far as school work goes. We shall see.

I may write a letter here but in the end this is my place and I am glad to be back from censoring myself, Poland has fallen and all the world waits hoping that will be all.

I have applied for Safewalk Director due to my concerns about where the service is going, Amanda is a decent administrator but she is unable to truely LEAD.

I am having a rough time as of late with the application and papers and everything else I am just feeling a little overwhelmed. School is not going as well as I hoped this semester, I need to go as far as the Ombudsman. I don’t wanna talk about it, Seriously. Anyhow emotional snapshow time continues and I am starting to regret making my blog so public, I never use it anymore, to many people who I don’t want to know are aware of here.

I ran into Megan from HS she is leading an odd life an honestly I can say that very little is making any sense at all from how the application process for the Directors position to the bizzare nature of many people around me’s life styles.

I am doomed in a class, and in another I am aces, in a Third I am doing fine.

Plus I am sick with the damn flu going around  LOVELY.

I keep coughing and feeling like hell and the Rtard in my French Canadian Hist class is one more “This is off topic but” from me snapping on him, it was close today, I rebutted his moronic ass but next week ONE WORD and I will be forced to destroy him.

I dunno what else is goin on in my life, I am still down, and things are catching up with me emotionally driving me down the bad times hiway. The whole lady scene is not my friend I have interest but I seriously doubt I have any chance at all such is life, and I am barely blogging. Bad sign. So much to say so little to do… I am just gonna get back to sitting here in the dark.