I am sitting here in the AD’s office at SAFEWALK reading a book while others watch movies, specifically Cowboy Bebop. Why am I in here alone at an event that I myself set up you might ask and the answer is the idea of being near other people right now fills me with fear and frustration. In limited numbers I am fairly functional but Gawds help me in any clss like situation. I need to get into the doctor and get some freaking help. Middies are coming and I have no clue. Worst of all I just don’t care. Not even the slightest bit about any of it, I am doing nothing to be proud of now. I am doing nothing I love.
I need to not let this stuff get me down but in alot of ways I seem capeable of doing nothing of use. I am getting the minimum done… about 1/2 the time. The Safewalk stuff is coming easy. everything else is to hard to contemplate.