Edutainment with Ranting

Kinda going down hill emotionally thinking at all the bad thoughts bad times. I am thinking of the past and nostalgia is not always a good thing. Maybe a night of sleep will help then off to the Doktor and then a pitch for a extension on the paper I have due tommorow.

I ran into Christine (See other blog) and we were talkin away for like an hour.
Did I get a phone number NO
Did I give her mine NO
Do I feel like I came off like a creep, hells yea. The good news being that she didn’t run screaming from my presence, but that may have been just to prevent a scene.

Now I have to restart my essay due to a lack of material AND I am totally depressed by my utter ineptitude,
This is like the WORST POSSIBLE COMBINATION.
Icould pitch for an extension but then am I not “That Guy who cannot get shit done in a timely fashion. It doesn’t help that i USED to be that guy. DammiT i really thought I was past this kind of shit.

All I want to do is go hide in my bed.

I Suck.

I now have my class Audit and as of now I am stuck another year on my BA, I am not suprised but kinda annoyed, next year I pretty much have to take fillers, Science and tech courses ect. Well maybe Chem 102 to go with the Chem 101 next semester with an added TWO 6-9 classes. It will be worth it but damn does it suck now.

Well I have begun my Term paper due in two days, not to worry she is a little 1500 word paper based upon our text book. I have a introduction and an outline I will flesh it out tommorow and do some editing and it will be all done for Wednesday afternoon. Hooray.

I bought the 20th Anniversary “Transformers the Movie” today, because of course it is awesome…. As well I had yet to see the Trailer for the live action. It left me unimpressed but the Decepticon Magnet made up for that coupled with the amazing quality of the film on DVD made it a good purchase.

I have to go to Rutherford tommorow and do some research so my paper is not a complete fabrication not that it would be a bad thing persay but I really need to get my shit together. Really Really need to.

With this paper done I have one more paper and a short presentation. The other one is a toughie tho at 10 pages of hist. I would rather a big classics paper, but what can you do?

Conned my mother into driving into the city and taking me shopping and as an added bonus had the Old Man treat with Lunch at Milestones which is of course freakin awesome. Then I found Jeans on Sale at the Marks for $10 meaning that my supply of pants has gone from drought to bounty. Hooray. No longer will the black light visible stains on my Jeans be a social impediment. even though the one looks like Skull from PVP. I won’t talk about what the other one looks like….. Nope.

Saw Borat last night and I now belive the positive reviews are a conspiracy aimed at having all american men see a morbidly obese man naked wrestle a skinnier man. It was embarassing funny which is a good way to say “Bryan will not have fun.”

Ate food at BP’s afterwards and chilled.

Now Saturday is the day to Blog about as what started as a small get together (Alex, Erich, Frank, and Nathilie) to play Axis Hemoraged with (Arthur, Jen, Alvin, Kichanski, and Randy) showing up leading eventually to a 2 hour game of Bang being played in my appartment. Between that and How loud I was with the Browns winning one I am deeply suprised no one came by to complain… Till I remembered that almost EVERYBODY went home for the weekend. Anyhow I will speak more later…. Or I won’t whatever.

Went to beers with Nirbo and John, it was nice to get out with the guys, and maybe from here there will be  more regular hang out thing.

I was going to try to mess around with this thing and make it look better, but the subtle mixture of liquor and the late hours has made me sleepy so instead I am going to bed. I should talk more but, well I have to study as well.

School is going well, middie on Monday that I am going to slam dunk.

Carla was funny twice this day. This is a first EVER. I for one am blown away, also showed my amazing ice in bra abilities. Corrin was suprised I am sure.

Had Korean BBQ with Alex, Erich, and Nathalie…. It was Great and HELLA filling I tell you what. I reccomend it to everybody.

I would write more but I am really only up to digest.

Today puts the E in uneventful, I slept till noon and it took me hours to get moving having actually gotten ready to face the world by 5:00pm. I have a SAFEWALK at 10 and I am, sorta looking forward to it if only because it will get me out of the house.

I am still not sold on living alone, I like it, but it gets really REALLY lonely.

I am sitting here wishing I had more self control as far as my school work, I am not screwed by any means. Man do I wish I was the kind of fella who was focused and driven. Instead of sitting here till the last minute as I do.

I am thinking of stashing the PS2 till the end of the semester, no football and when tempted I should do my homework. I am thinking of getting some books together and going for sushi. I……….. I don’t know if I feel like people tonight.

Called in Sick today, rough night. Need to get my head on straight as well.

At what point should one just give the hell up on the whole thing?

If not soon, maybe now.