Edutainment with Ranting

In 15 min I will venture out to catch my bus to Sherwood Park for work and I have to say this is the part of the morning I dislike most, well this and the fact that the evening is a write off by the time I get home. I have begun talking about a new job but as I am aware of the futility of such it probably won’t happen unless I become deeply disatisfied, or when I move in April “Ish”. Why “Ish” because in the most stressfull period of the year I am not going to move and make things WORSE.

Finances are shaky right now, In fact I better pay my rent Tonight or I am totally boned. Dang.

Well off to work.

Yesterday no post due to the writing of Both a ten page paper and a 20 min presentation.

All are in now done, 5pm to 1am I performed these tasks while dealing with retards on Lj who have been all about ripping on me. I am a moron for posting on a Edmonton community thread. I am a dumb ass.

Hide is apparently trapped in Calgary with no papers, Bad times. I have found him assistance if he requires it, but so far he seems Ok. I have no idea how he gets himself into these messes.

Oh yeah MUST REMEMEBER TO SET UP D&D SECTION.

So the emotional stop came today. I caved and emo-Bryan ruled the house. The only time the light has been on is when I went to binge eat. Yay.

Well not really, Nothing was done today no homework or anything and it seems my Athsma is acting up as well

Due to  a valient effort by Jen and Corrine Via the MSN I am now somewhat functional I hope to maintain this and get my Presentation done tommorow. On my essay I am going to take the late because at this point I just don’t care. I have been self destructing far to much as of late but I can persevere.

As well many seem to be aware of who I am attracted to, the question is does she know and have statements on her part been an attempt to warn me off.
I can hear someone playing a game, I hear Blaster fire. Its 1:30 on a monday in what amounts to residence and someone is playing a game. He/She sounds bad at it. Why can’t they do something normal and kill pigeons or something?

Ok things are getting done, I have pics and other stuff ready for the presentation and after I talk to my prof I may have some attractive colour pics as well, I am at 10 slides for a 20 min thing. Of course thats nowhere near enough, but with sufficent levels of Additional research it is coming along. I am going to try to pitch my Hist Prof on an extension till friday on my paper monday and failing that write it and the presentation on Tuesday. So thats the “Game Plan”

That I have started this soon is mind Boggling.

Had my B-Day party with my mothers family today and am now $50.00 ahead as far as income, it appears I may get away with my virtual 2 weeks off. But I have decided. I need a new job. A closer Job. That pays as well as my current employment. Is anyone in the market for a $11-14 an hour sales person. Yeah.

Well I am mentally in a good place, kinda in the clutch and all that but I am doing OK.  I think. My lady place sucks but how it that unusual?

D&D goes well but as I have not figured out how to have seperate pages here so thats all I will say. Plus DRAMA, well maybe.

Sirius Satilite Radio Add

Two Black Guys, seem to be mountian Climbing

Guy one “I am not behind 2 teir health care man, poor people need help to”

Guy Two “Why you gotta play on my man Ralph?”

I am sorry but WHAT IN THE FUCK

So it seems that my Paypal auto dumped one of my purchases so I had $70.00 sitting in there totally unused. I wish I had of known about this when I spent the last week living on KD and Hamburgers. I have been making it as a kind of casaroll. Why because its what I have. So now I have to wait a week to get it…. the good news is I got paid today. I am going to class tommorow, I am GOING TO CLASS TOMMOROW!!!!!! Seriously. Or like at least AT LEAST go to my first class.

As well although my lease says they are supposed to give me 24hrs notice of an entrance they kicked a sheet under my door at 11:10pm for an 8:30-4:30 entry. I am…… Terse about especially since I will have something like 15 people here from 2pm ON. As well they are “check, and if required, repair the stove receptacle.” I have made no stove complaint it works great. So therefore WHAT THE HELL DO THEY WANT IN MY APT…..  Also they say to complain to campus residence services that of course closed at like 6pm and does not open till they say they will be in. Does that seem like a load of shit to you? It does to me! I am Totally FUCKING Pissed. I mean according to the lease I am supposed to get 24hrs NOTICE.

Roar Yell Bitch ECT.

Semagic Birthdays of the day is John Kovalic, the Artist of Dork Tower and the man who supplies the Drawing for Munchkin. Check him out and Say happy B-Day at his LJ Muskratjohn

Tommorow’s (Saturday) Semagic claims it is Anastasia’s date of Birth she associates with the enemy and has done nothing to change that so therefore I will just be informing rather than blessing. As well I unfriended her so why in the hell is it still buggin me about her. Stupid Software should sense my Angst.

Well Thank the lord Colbert was funny or I would be up till all hours.

Maybe I will provide an amusing tale of the D&D adventure, I would now but I am trying to give it it’s own section seperate from the general ranting/life stuff I post on the main site.

I wonder if Rachel will have any artistic goodies for me.

So it is the opinion of my Doctor that the cause of my muscle pain is, My Blood Pressure Meds!! So now I am off them and the search for ones that work has started once more. FUCK. As well it is not a 100% thing, I have to go in for blood tests to make sure that I am not actually dying. I called into work and offered a note, the doctor offered one for my class I am sure that she will be Ok with giving me one for tommorow……except I think she has it off. DAMN IT. well I will call in tommrow and see. This really REALLY SUCKS.

I have the text for my Presentation and I have to get it and my Hist paper done tommorow. Well by next wednesday. I am going to try to get in to see my Hist Prof and talk to him about this.

Tommorow is going to be hell. I have to move and work all day, but I get enough done, if I get enough done I can actually not be screwed over the weekend and actually get done before the last possible day.

I have to get over this negative streak I am on, I know I am down because I am disatisfied with alot of stuff in my life. I am doing my best. I am getting school done. I am meeting people and trying to fill the holes in my life. I have good friends. I am afraid…. Its hard to articulate, I have them all here playing games and I am scared to death. I can do a in class presentation with a blank sheet but the thought of failing all these people scares the hell out of me. That they will not want to be around me. I see Nirbo lashing out and I think of doing that. Lashing out and drive them all away and just hide under the bed till my life blows over.

This was not how this road was supposed to go. But here I am all the same.

All my muscles hurt. Arms wrist legs feet. I am not used to this. I am sure they have hurt for awhile, it has that kind of….. I want to say flavor. I am becoming even more bothered by the way a return to normal Blood Pressure reveals more problems. I mean seriously WTF. I am now having problems with typing spelling and speaking. I may have to go to the Doktor again.
I have gotten some of my paper done today and Wed if I can find Carla or Rachel I should be able to have this peice of Crap Edited, I am now at 1/3rd complete and I have emailed in a question giving me at least a temporary delay. Tommorow pain or not I will truck my way over to the Library and spend the day doing research and wrap this piece of crap up.

Then I have the time to do the 10 page essay for history, and a 20 min presentation for classics but It should be a breeze that I can wrap up by the weekend. Maybe, or not.

As mentioned elsewhere I am about to run a game of D&D with 14 people 50% female. We are in my apt. and I am feeling MASSIVE ANXIETY I don’t know if it is the number of people in here or just the general anxiety but I really want to hyperventilate.

Short week but going Ok as such, I still have to do that delightful paper for wednesday plus the one for hist and the presentation. I am not completly screwed yet but it is getting close, real close. Going to a party tonight and am trying to make room for both Kev’s B-Day and my D&D game. Looks like the day will be a tight split.

In other news my food finaces collapsed on Thursday leaving me on my stored food till next friday. The good news is 1. I can eat at my parents 2 and maybe even 3 times 2. I have been storing food for months and 3. Some people owe me meals. So I should be fine.

Still kinda mental from earlier in the week. sleeping again tho so hooray.

Football news: The Browns beat the Falcons this week and have moved on to fight the Steelers for the lead in the division on Sunday. Not just are they my most hated rival but the winner is also looking at a playoff shot. A little backstory as far as this game, 1. I have NEVER seen my Browns beat the steelers. 2. This will be the first time in 3 years that we have won 2 in a row. And fianlly do I not deserve some joy?